Finally, I got the time and energy to return.This is a long overdue post, but, better late than never.
Life in Delhi is a rollercoaster.I have literally been ‘on-my-toes’ since the day I landed here.But, it is not what I had imagined it to be. Sometimes, I feel it is much much better and sometimes I feel I shouldn’t have taken the decision to relocate.I still am not at peace with myself, as there are n number of things disturbing my equilibrium.
There are moments when I am really really happy and moments when I am really really sad. Somehow, I have not been able to attain a balance between the extremes yet.Life is changing every single day.Maybe it is the ‘Dilli’ factor or maybe, personally, I am at such a point in life.Or is it the quarter-life-crisis? I don’t know, I really don’t.
Happiness comes in splashes.I am happy when I see an invitation to the Annual-Day dinner , at my college and the fact that I can plan to go (Every year, I received the invitation and got sad about not being able to attend), I am happy when I feel the cold winds, the temperature dripping. I am happy when I eat(anything and everything), I am so happy when I shop, I am happy for friends who have found love and for those too, who’ll soon be entangled in wedlock.I am happy with the fact that I can catch a train home, anytime I want and still it would not cost me 10K bucks.I am happy when I have gol-gappe instead of pani-puri which sucked big time.I am happy that the weather keeps changing.I am happy that I am within easily approachable distance from near and dear ones.I am happy that Delhi still rocks! I am happy that I took the decision to come back.I am happy that Delhi is a second hometown for me.I am just plain happy.
But, letting go, has never been my cup of tea and I always cling to people and things I love.This was supposed to be my world,and now that finally I have made it my own, I sometimes really miss the one which I have left behind.And then, I again need one of those splashes of happiness to bring me to the real life.Thankfully, someone or the other sprinkles those on me and I am back to being my chirpy self!:)